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00:00:05whenever
00:00:08LRT radio comes.
00:00:50Hello, my name is Ima and today I am visiting my former
00:00:53school.
00:01:00"I am sick with
00:01:01anorexia.
00:01:06Eating disorders are a psychological and physical condition
00:01:09characterized by distorted relationships with food and
00:01:13excessive body weight control. The most common
00:01:16are anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and
00:01:19binge eating. Eating disorders eventually damage
00:01:23the heart, digestive system, bones, teeth and mouth, and
00:01:26lead to a series of other diseases or even death.
00:01:40"It all started with bulimia, for a few months I had
00:01:44bulimia and it developed into
00:01:47anorexia, from anorexia it then
00:01:51became orthorexia, but
00:01:53after being admitted to the hospital I managed to fight it and to this
00:01:57day I have a task"
00:02:01to overcome anorexia, I still
00:02:05haven't uncovered what that
00:02:08source is, what is the basis of my illness,
00:02:12of course there are certain
00:02:16clear factors that exacerbated it and from which I
00:02:19relapsed very quickly,
00:02:21but what could have influenced
00:02:25me to feel that
00:02:28self-hatred, hatred for my body, and I
00:02:31would block myself
00:02:34from life with hunger, I still don't know to this
00:02:38day,
00:02:42when I remember, for example, my adolescence
00:02:46and the bullying I experienced
00:02:49at school because of my body type, I
00:02:53felt much worse and
00:02:57everything was much harder to
00:03:00endure than working as a model and
00:03:04hearing from time to time that I am either too feminine or too
00:03:07fat or that my body type
00:03:11is unsuitable, I remember that bullying affected
00:03:15me and I think it affected me much more strongly and
00:03:18deeply than modeling
00:03:20standards.
00:03:32"It all started in seventh grade,
00:03:36um,
00:03:38it was a very difficult period, actually, um,
00:03:42one girl,
00:03:45who was my best friend at the time, started
00:03:47bullying me, when I got an offer
00:03:51to work as a model and I just
00:03:54remember that the next day I came to school and
00:03:57none of my classmates
00:04:01talked to me and
00:04:04over time the whole
00:04:07school laughed and mocked me,
00:04:11the whole school, I only communicated with my
00:04:15cousin, but I didn't have anyone,
00:04:18not a single person who would communicate with me, and it all
00:04:22started from my body type, everyone mocked me for being
00:04:26very thin, that I was called "Valenta"
00:04:30that was such a top one,
00:04:33also from September until the end of winter
00:04:37they simply called me names verbally, and then
00:04:40I remember there was a period when
00:04:42I
00:04:46tried to leave school and
00:04:49older boys surrounded me in a circle and
00:04:53said something, "a tree came out, let's push
00:04:56it", and they just pushed me in the schoolyard.
00:05:00one from another, so I remember,
00:05:04for good months, I just waited until
00:05:07more time passed, or until all the children left school or
00:05:11classes started again so that I would be alone in the yard,
00:05:14so that I could walk to the
00:05:16bus stop alone,
00:05:23an inhumanly, inhumanly difficult period,
00:05:27because
00:05:30I felt very, very unsafe, very
00:05:32unsafe, I remember
00:05:35very
00:05:37much I was angry with myself that I, that I am
00:05:41like this. "That I look like this, I
00:05:44remember, I prayed that
00:05:47I would mature faster, I would gain weight, become
00:05:51rounder,
00:05:54and it went on like this for a whole year, every day,
00:05:58I would come home from
00:06:01school and I remember,
00:06:05I would tremble, cry and it was
00:06:09very, very difficult."
00:06:15"The family saw and
00:06:16heard, and my mommy very much
00:06:20m
00:06:23supported me and helped me fight, but she was very
00:06:27strict at that
00:06:30time, I only remember
00:06:33that she very often said, pull yourself together,
00:06:37focus, you are not a loser, you are strong, you
00:06:40must be strong, you now..."
00:06:42"raise your head and don't cry in front of them, don't show them that it hurts, because they
00:06:46only want that, I would be a child, well
00:06:50for me, what is strong, well it hurts me, I
00:06:53just and you at school, I remember, you go
00:06:57there and try to hold back all those tears and be
00:07:00strong, you come home and you also have to be
00:07:03strong, so I remember that at that
00:07:07time it seemed that vulnerability is
00:07:10weakness, that I cannot show that I am vulnerable, that it hurts
00:07:13me, that I am sensitive,
00:07:16for a child who is experiencing or suffering from bullying, I think
00:07:20it is very, very important to have a safe
00:07:23space, to find that safe space, and I would very
00:07:27much suggest creating it with an older person, whether it
00:07:30be a father or a mother, or perhaps a
00:07:33teacher.
00:07:46"I think a teacher is precisely the person who can notice a lot,
00:07:50sometimes and most often parents notice
00:07:52less and teachers tell parents
00:07:56to look, something is wrong, and parents think that everything is
00:07:59fine, because children still spend most of the
00:08:03day at school, of course, then all the clubs, the family
00:08:06gathers mostly, I guess, at the dinner table, so
00:08:10I think teachers are the ones who..." can press that
00:08:13signal and tell parents to do
00:08:17something,
00:08:19if we are talking about eating disorders
00:08:23and about eating, then the teacher first sees
00:08:26the child's attentiveness in class, he knows what kind of child
00:08:29he was before, what happened to the child, for example, it could be
00:08:33one time he didn't get enough sleep, maybe another time something happened,
00:08:37but if it's related to eating, then you constantly see that child
00:08:41is either lethargic or... apathetic or has no
00:08:43energy, or is very irritable, there are many
00:08:47such nuances, such psychological characteristics,
00:08:50especially if you observe the child in class, and for example, if you have the opportunity to see
00:08:54them during a break, then you can certainly observe, after all,
00:08:58if you have such a strong bond and relationship with
00:09:01the child, often, if you ask the child once,
00:09:04another time, and he
00:09:05confides,
00:09:09how to get the child to talk and find that kind of. child's heart,
00:09:13yes, that is, perhaps it is an art, it is a calling
00:09:17of a teacher, but probably the main thing is, if you care about
00:09:21that child, then you will always get him to talk, just like
00:09:24in a family, if you care about family members, then you will always
00:09:28talk to them, notice and know, one might need to be
00:09:31left alone and slowly encouraged to talk, another might
00:09:35need to be asked directly, so
00:09:38I somehow think that teachers, if they have chosen this
00:09:41job, and they work, then I believe
00:09:44that they have the talent to
00:09:47get them to talk, to find that way to the child's
00:09:50heart, and so that the child can
00:09:53really speak up,
00:10:00it is a very, very difficult psychological illness, which
00:10:04requires, um, probably a lot of courage,
00:10:08a lot of work on oneself,
00:10:10it is very commendable. well, when that
00:10:14teenager simply calls to say
00:10:16that I simply cannot look at my
00:10:20body, it is ugly to me,
00:10:23I think that is... is every teenager's
00:10:26victory, because he is already looking for an answer and seeking
00:10:30help, that is the first small step, from
00:10:33which recovery
00:10:34can begin.
00:10:39throughout my life it is very difficult
00:10:42to establish a peaceful relationship with my body, because
00:10:46in childhood, adolescence I was mocked for being
00:10:50thin and too thin, I
00:10:52remember.
00:10:55I did and wanted everything to be rounder, to be
00:10:59fatter, then I started working as a model
00:11:03and
00:11:07I worked from 14
00:11:10years old until
00:11:1218 I worked with haute couture, where that
00:11:16thin body was a privilege, a plus
00:11:20and then, I remember, when I was 18, I
00:11:23only then started to mature. I became very feminine
00:11:26and I thought, finally I have, in that sense, breasts
00:11:30and hips appeared, I
00:11:34then started hearing from my agencies that I
00:11:37was too feminine, this is not good, I started not fitting my
00:11:41clients, I then remember, I just
00:11:44thought, what do you want from me, I mean, I fought
00:11:48all my life
00:11:51with that thinness, I wanted to be.
00:11:55and when I, but I wasn't even fat, I mean, I just became
00:11:58feminine, and when I became a woman, I started hearing
00:12:02that thinness is good,
00:12:04and I somehow, I don't know,
00:12:08all my life it seemed I didn't accept myself as
00:12:11I am, because I didn't have
00:12:14a safe space to simply enjoy and
00:12:17simply be who I
00:12:19am,
00:12:23an eating disorder is not. a relationship with food, it
00:12:27is a relationship with oneself and a relationship with the environment, I
00:12:30am somehow insufficient, something is wrong with me, what do I
00:12:34have to do, I have to change something, right, it goes through weight,
00:12:38for example, I don't have, I don't have a relationship with my family, right, there are no
00:12:41warm relationships, I don't have friends, so the child then loses
00:12:45such basic needs, there is no security, no
00:12:48attachment, no support, no boundaries,
00:12:52starts to think, something must be wrong with me.
00:12:55"If I lose weight, maybe
00:12:59they will start to love me, maybe they will look at me differently, I
00:13:02am probably somehow not right, that's why this is happening to me, there are
00:13:06five-year-old girls who are dieting, there are
00:13:0910-year-olds who are already dissatisfied with their bodies
00:13:13and trying to change, and boys and girls suffer
00:13:16equally from the same feelings, from shame, from guilt, from
00:13:20non-acceptance, why there are more girls, maybe they
00:13:24talk about it more. more noticeable, but of course
00:13:27you can also understand why, well, a woman's body, no matter what, is discussed
00:13:31more, there are more nuances about
00:13:34it, there are more stereotypical views about it, it is talked about
00:13:38more, the body is more sexualized and
00:13:41girls are much more often told about how they can achieve
00:13:45success through their body, through their appearance, how they look,
00:13:49boys, they perhaps look at it a little
00:13:52differently, they focus more on muscles. on
00:13:55definition, on nutrition, well, a little differently, it's not as
00:13:59noticeable, but yes, I can confidently say that boys suffer
00:14:03just as much from it, eating disorder, that
00:14:06will not be a sprint
00:14:09in treatment, but will be a marathon that
00:14:12will continue, continue and continue and you will still need to come back
00:14:16to it, to check, to verify, if everything is still well,
00:14:19that disease has accompanied me for
00:14:21almost my entire life,
00:14:25and from adolescence, I
00:14:29had a difficult relationship with my parents, a difficult relationship
00:14:33with my mother, my mother had a difficult relationship with her
00:14:36body, she always tried to
00:14:40lose weight, to draw attention to certain
00:14:44parts of her body,
00:14:47attention in front of her children, so
00:14:50in front of me and my sister, and in reality I grew up
00:14:54not... "the personality that
00:14:57imagines herself, but I see my mother
00:15:01I try to continue that story and truly
00:15:04lose weight, truly please,
00:15:08truly satisfy, truly
00:15:10be that victim a continuation of
00:15:13my mother and that is very difficult,
00:15:17because it is a struggle throughout my whole
00:15:20life.
00:15:27"And it's really easy for parents to overlook
00:15:30and miss things, because we're all caught up in our routines,
00:15:33working, and we really don't notice
00:15:36most of the time, because, well..." We see the child with a backpack, if we drive them in the car,
00:15:40we get in the car, all with our worries, work, when we come back in the evening,
00:15:44we rush again, run, at the table, when you sit down, again the
00:15:48child is in all their clothes, you can't notice every day,
00:15:51seeing a person, whether they have become very thin or
00:15:55fatter, maybe for me it's such a
00:15:58personal experience, I am the same
00:16:01mother who overlooked her
00:16:03eldest daughter.
00:16:07"until someone from the outside told me, the teachers started
00:16:10saying, then friends started saying, don't
00:16:14you see, I say no, no, everything's fine, everything's beautiful, she's just
00:16:17a dancer, just thin, everyone
00:16:21places her everywhere, everything goes well for her, cheerful, smiling up to
00:16:24her ears, everything seems fine, when they started telling me, I now
00:16:28also pay attention, I first saw her hands
00:16:31and I saw, when she was already
00:16:34undressed, her back and hips, well..." then those
00:16:38are the bones and those, I don't even know ribs, that become visible, you can't confuse
00:16:42it with anything else, so it's easy for parents to overlook, yes,
00:16:45until they go to warm countries and until the warm season begins,
00:16:49they won't
00:16:50see it.
00:16:54First of all, it can already be noticed through both physical changes and
00:16:58internal changes, well, physical changes are visible, such as
00:17:01weight loss, the child somehow
00:17:05changes externally, but then... There are many, many
00:17:09internal changes, such as withdrawal into oneself,
00:17:12isolation, contacts begin to break down, so
00:17:16fewer friends, less connection with the same
00:17:19family, for example, they may refuse to go to dinner
00:17:22with the family, refusing, because as if I've already eaten, as if
00:17:26I don't want to, I'm already full there, I want to go to
00:17:30my room, they take food to their room,
00:17:33various such things can happen, it can be that...
00:17:37"Suddenly becomes interested in vegetarianism, it was, it was,
00:17:40everything was normal nutrition, suddenly became a vegetarian, or, for example,
00:17:44begins to be very interested in recipes, especially,
00:17:47recipes, culinary books, I had a case where they smelled
00:17:51food, for example, started smelling food, satisfying themselves with
00:17:54smelling food, so there are many such
00:17:57signs, you need to pay attention to them, they may
00:18:00start exercising, such compulsive exercising, when
00:18:04I already exercise, exercise, exercise or..." for example,
00:18:07such a mirror, scales,
00:18:11calories, such things are exaggerated,
00:18:14very sharpened,
00:18:16behavior can also be such stress, it is visible that the child's
00:18:20motivation to learn drops, attention
00:18:23concentration completely disappears, so these are
00:18:26things that need to be paid attention to and see what is
00:18:28happening.
00:18:33there are moments very often in life, where I
00:18:35feel. where I feel that my heart
00:18:39is icy, so petrified,
00:18:43it is very, very difficult to trust people, to let people
00:18:46in,
00:18:48because well, it hurt, it hurt
00:18:52a lot,
00:18:58I am recovering from anorexia and today my
00:19:02healthy voice is much stronger than the disease
00:19:05I can already control it.
00:19:08it, which for me today is very, very joyful,
00:19:12ah, but it was not always so, because anorexia manipulated
00:19:15me a lot, ah,
00:19:18it hid all the childhood
00:19:21traumas that were difficult for me to look in the eye and
00:19:25say, yes, it was, but from today we live
00:19:29differently, I was afraid to eat
00:19:32food, all those delicious
00:19:35products, chocolate, pastries, ah
00:19:38everything a person can allow themselves,
00:19:42also, um, body
00:19:46relationship with oneself, I bought smaller clothes to
00:19:49fit into them, that was my goal, I was very
00:19:52proud that I could
00:19:56shop in a children's clothing store
00:20:00and it was a very big achievement for me
00:20:04and I was proud of myself for what I...
00:20:07am striving for in the end,
00:20:10when I was really left
00:20:13m alone with the disease, I realized that it took
00:20:17everything from me, communication, friends,
00:20:20leisure, self-love, I just sat
00:20:23at home and couldn't eat anymore, I
00:20:27was afraid to eat
00:20:29and every 100 g on the scale I saw
00:20:33a kilogram, even though I already weighed 45
00:20:36kilograms. the goal was even smaller
00:20:40and I really saw myself in the mirror
00:20:42as a fat
00:20:44person.
00:20:50"I think I would strongly advise families to find
00:20:54time and have that tradition of a shared table, shared
00:20:58meals, for breakfast, perhaps, probably
00:21:01they don't really have time and it's more difficult, lunch, these
00:21:04days probably few people manage it, so then have that shared
00:21:08dinner,
00:21:15and for the family it will also be togetherness, because at that shared table you
00:21:19can really..." hear what that child lives for, he
00:21:23will definitely speak between sentences, between
00:21:26words, what
00:21:28is going on,
00:21:32parents who bring their children here, often you hear that
00:21:35they feel guilty, they talk about not noticing, missing,
00:21:39now something has happened to our child, maybe something is wrong with us,
00:21:42what they ask, what could we have done differently, so
00:21:46you always want to support parents, to say that, well...
00:21:50"you are already doing it now, you are already with that child, with that
00:21:53teenager, and that is what he needs now, because
00:21:56sooner or later, it will still become clear, as I mentioned
00:22:00earlier, children know how to hide, we don't always notice it,
00:22:04and I want to ask parents, please
00:22:07do not emphasize your children's appearance, emphasize what they
00:22:11have inside, it is also very important to take care of yourself,
00:22:14your self-worth, because children see that, children emulate,
00:22:18they look at their parents. and it is important
00:22:21to know that at that time it is very, very difficult for the teenager, that
00:22:25it seems he is at war with food, at war with the whole
00:22:28world, in reality he is at war with himself and with his
00:22:31pain, so it is important to be there, to be
00:22:35together, to accompany, even if he pushes you away, know that
00:22:39in any case he wants you to be there, to
00:22:42endure, to lift him up,
00:22:44accompany him, and sometimes that presence and a gentle
00:22:47word is much more important than any... action.
00:22:50veiksmą.
00:22:55To mothers, I would really like to say and
00:22:58wish to have a healthy relationship with their
00:23:01body, with food,
00:23:04to show the child, ah,
00:23:08how indeed a mother as a person can
00:23:11love herself, have her own
00:23:15rich world, regardless of the cult of beauty,
00:23:18ah... proper
00:23:20a eating is, it's
00:23:24not that I eat what works and
00:23:28what is unhealthy, that intuitive
00:23:31eating, when you can eat a piece of
00:23:34chocolate and enjoy it,
00:23:36drink delicious coffee with sugar and not
00:23:40blame yourself for it and involve your teenager
00:23:44in that game, who will also
00:23:47be able to emulate and accept. those beautiful and
00:23:51healthy examples directly from mom, because probably
00:23:55mom and dad lay the foundation in us, which
00:23:59we continue to cultivate
00:24:00within ourselves.
00:24:04in what stage am I now,
00:24:11I am
00:24:13very
00:24:15loving,
00:24:18I am very grateful to life for everything, for
00:24:22everything, for all the lessons I had to go through, for all the
00:24:24experiences, because I wouldn't be such a strong,
00:24:28inspiring and motivating personality, perhaps,
00:24:32as I am now, and for me these days it
00:24:35is like a uniqueness, to be able
00:24:38to feel, to know a person and
00:24:42still truly be able to listen to him
00:24:45without forgetting oneself and one's values,
00:24:49to wish.
00:24:53"I would like to wish myself
00:24:55to surrender
00:25:00to the flow, to surrender to the flow,
00:25:03not to be angry with myself, not to be angry
00:25:06with
00:25:10certain experiences and situations
00:25:13that you cannot control, that do not depend on you,
00:25:17to trust in God and maintain
00:25:20that connection with yourself,
00:25:23not to lose yourself and not to give in to others' gossip,
00:25:27because the greatest value you
00:25:29can have is peace with yourself and simply
00:25:33allow yourself to feel everything.